Sat through 2 baby dedications at church today. It struck me that my feelings towards such, are the same feelings I've been carrying around since adolescence. A deep cynicism. I saw large families - with great grandparents, grandparents, parents. People my age with kids. And what do I have? I'm the poster-child for "free will", as in the compatibilist view. All my choices, have stemmed from a certain cynicism, and have landed me where I'm at in life - I'm unable to share in joy. Unable to have joy. My entire universe is steeped in melancholy, sometimes bearable, sometimes not. It has been so since I can remember.
Dominik Smialowski
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